Where do I go from here?

Abstract

When my brother died, I felt I was spinning helplessly out of control. I went through so many emotions. Anger, guilt, overwhelming sadness. I felt as though I was no longer a sister to a brother. I began to fear death. At night, I would say my prayers, hoping it was all a horrible nightmare. I thought that no one could ever feel as badly as I was or know how I was feeling. I felt as though my life had stopped.