When the trial ends: moral experiences of caregiving in a randomized controlled trial in Goa, India.

This is an ethnographic study that examines the experiences of peer counsellors in the Thinking Healthy Programme Peer-delivered (THPP), a randomized controlled trial of a psychological intervention for perinatal depression in Goa, India. Based on nine months of fieldwork from 2015 to 2017 and through caregiving theories posited by one of us, we examine how caregiving is experienced by peer counsellors in a randomized controlled trial, a context in which care is given for a finite period and is removed at the study's end. Analysis of our data generated three themes: caregiving as a reciprocated process that impacts peer counsellor and participant; memories of care, with attention to the space that caregiving occupies in the memories and subjectivities of peer counsellors; and the end of the trial as experienced as a removal of care in the community of the counsellors. We posit that the moral aspects of caregiving are particularly important for peer counsellors, and that the context of randomized controlled trials is central to these moral experiences, particularly at the trial's end, when peer counsellors are asked to end care that, in many cases, remains expressed as needed.